“.. you're gonna miss me by my walk, you're gonna miss me by my talk, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone.” oh would you really laddie? There are such times whereas I am dead confused like a fre'ken himbo, feeling fucked up on the insides like Meghan ‘Miserella’ James from the Bad Girl's Club Season Nine, like a happy-boy-who-feels-like-a-million-bucks, a kid with his pack of cotton candy, or like a complete cray cray disastrous mixture of the bitter-sweet-sour-spicy which makes completely no sense since it's like-a-bull-of-shit, totally. In other words, that's love.

By the way, I'd just attended an ol' so boring cohesion like a day ago, no offense since I heart 'em from my camp, but the awkward groupie atmosphere and the buffet spread turns on my cussy-whine button. Speaking of which, who knew dressing up as myself would get me called an indie, hippie young-punk from the 60's, like really? And would people quit hating on moi damn socks. Thank goodness @superacidic was free after brunch! And giggles, I did had some waffles and a caramel macchiato from Starbucks beforehand oop'sie daisy, so I'm over the buffet spread. We then went window shopping, bought myself some new rings, and too went for Tom Cruise's latest film ‘Oblivion’. I swear the two-hour film was alright, the start was so dang boring, but coming to the back, we get the point. Who knew about the Sci-fi twist, which got me mad pissed at those damn aliens, well it's just a movie. Instead, I'm looking forward to catching ‘Iron Man 3’ and ‘Fast and Furious 6’ with my homies like a complete dork-who-does-harry-potter. I can't wait to hang out with those who I have or hadn't seen in ages. While I am on that, I have a week of standby duties ahead of me, ugh. Well, there is a saying of “What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.” that I, or we will be, no matter how rocky the roads can be ahead of us, be brave I'll say.

“.. bullpoopie happens, and sometimes it's not easy picking yourself up, thy be strong always.” something which I'm really inspired by the novels by P.C. and Kristin Cast, the House of Night series, which I have had picked up once again since I do have the entire collection, and there is really not much I could do being always stucked with duties in camp, considering all of the camp restrictions they have ruled out on us all. Well, we all have to deal with what life has brought upon our plates, it's just how it rolls.

Talk about the half year hiatus I have been on. Ignore my bad grammar, but I have just too much bullshit going on and about my life these past couple of weeks. To think about it, I used to think that I was down with luck, on the bright side, it couldn't have gotten' much worse, could it? Well, like how my true friends chirps day night long by my ears, let me emphasize on the word ‘true’, that I'd just have to be optimistic about since there'll be bigger obstacles which as I would have to face in the near future, and that this was just the beginning. I am cool with that idea, and even though I ain't boy-who-goes-to-church-every-sunday since I am not a Christian, I do believe in praying, at least it calms my man-titties down and that well at least someone's listening, he's listening. I would just have to be strong, no matter how the tables have turned round and about, that everything is going to be okay.

To think that I have other things to stress about, Daddy just asked a very good question a couple minutes ago at dinner “.. what are you planning to do after your national service?” and to be honest, I am down with nothing. He did remind me that I do have a year ahead, but that too a year is not a very long time, since time flies.

I am only turning twenty this year. Ah hell, sometimes I do think that life really loves fiddling around with some strings, creating dead knots. To much I would have to think about seriously, I too wish that I could just have fun and enjoy my damn youth! Well, we'll never know what will happen in the next few minutes, so take your own lives into consideration and don't ever waste it away. Many may have made mistakes, and fallen, but that's where we pick ourselves up and move on, and that's how we all grow up.